The Beginning Of Was

This new entry is nothing much actually. I've been trying to search for quite interesting titles for this new entry but yes, this is what I got. Actually, I read a book few months ago and the title is "The Beginning Of Was". Let me tell you awesome people in advance that this is not a plagiarism, no. "The Beginning Of Was" unfold a story about a mother's suffering towards her lost of her husband and her only child and daughter. Basically I think that her story is touching and made me realize how fragile we are as a normal human being.

I've been through a lot recently. A lot of terrible things. Though I know that most of it was my own fault, I asked God why all these terrible things happened to me. He must have wanted to teach me something.

I am a girl with weaknesses and flaws. Most of the time, I let my weaknesses controls me. My temper and impatience, selfishness and everything. I guess this broken heart is what I get as a reward. I don't care how my writing skills looks like now, or my spelling. I am sure you people get the idea.

Maybe you think this is getting too personal. I think it's wrong too. I am just sharing some of my thoughts. Don't ever start a relationship if you think you're not ready. Think twice. You might hurt other people.

I'm not bias right now. I'm just stating my real and honest opinion about what we call relationship, I mean love relationship. A real one. I know what is called destined love, but without efforts, how can we ever achieve that? I don't believe we will gain something without efforts. Sometimes, human use excuses like "I think this is not for me." or "Maybe this is not it." without even trying his/her best. How can you know when you don't have the patience and the efforts you put on something are not the same as the other person nor the same as the efforts you put when you started everything? Think and relate. Think and think again.

And yes, even though I said all these in this lame entry, I know I couldn't do anything. Some people might read this and laugh at how stubborn I am for not moving on, just go on and laugh. I've been hurt enough, so I don't know how it feels like to be hurt again. Especially by people with judging minds.

And you. Yes, you. I just thought you are the one.