Life. Not many can define their life, because for them it is subjective. For me, it is too. Are you living a happy life or not so-happy life, it is a question that we slowly unfold as the time goes.
Happiness. Sometimes, people who care about me asks me this question. "Are you happy?" Yes, I am. Why? Because I have them. Them: My family, friends and you-know-who. Am I always happy? No. There are certain things that can make me unhappy, but sometimes the way I handle and control my emotions is not appropriate, or more precisely, not acceptable? Sometimes, I hurt myself and people all around me. I mean, emotionally, not physically. Yes, I'm lack of some good personalities. Not to say that I'm entirely bad and mean to people, no, but sometimes I can be moody and my hormones are sometimes like asking me "Go find some troubles, Eva." And some people are annoyed by this, seriously. But, I am thankful for those who really tries to understand me and be with me even when I'm at my worst. That fact, seriously, has made me survive until this very day, knowing that there are some people out there who accepted me for who I really am, aside from my family.
Expectations. Always, I expect too much from people. And always, that expectations turned me down. But, I know that we should not expect to much from people, because they are not perfect. Because we are not perfect too. Sometimes, people can't give us what we want, so all we have to do is take it easy. Why? Because we may not be able to give people what they want too. Don't demand too much, don't care too much, don't expect too much. Sometimes, life and everything in it will give us the hard time. Like achieving success or getting someone you want to be with for the rest of your life? It is a long journey to achieve all that. Sometimes, by waiting, taking it slow, but still working hard for it will make it worth the pain and suffering that you've endured for some time. And why not live your life to the fullest at the same time?
God. Some of us believed in Him. Some of us are not. I am one of the believers, though I am not around much to talk to Him. And I need to improve this side of me. People seek Him whenever they are in pain, asking why does all the unfortunate things happened to them, which is not wrong. Maybe it will keep their faith and make it stronger everyday. But you know what we truly need to do? We have to trust in His plans for us, not doubting that every single plans that He has made for us is truly for our best. His plans are beautiful and who in this world can deny that fact? But you should know that sometimes, His plans are mysterious and it is our job to seek for the answers.
Here I am again. Typing these words, maybe reflecting on what should I do to improve where I'm lacking, or what should I not do to prevent the flaws be more worse than it is. All I can say is that I am one flawed girl, far from being perfect, to be a perfect daughter, to be a perfect friend, or even to be a perfect girlfriend. People will always say that they are not perfect. I am too. But all we have to do is to learn from our mistakes but keep on working our best in improving our relationship and in achieving success that we have always desired in our life. But you know what else we need to do? Live our life to the fullest. I may be not living in a castle, living a life of a princess', but I am grateful for everything that I have in this precious life of mine. I am not regretting anything, and I hope that everyone I know are not regretting anything for having or knowing me in their life. Once again, live to the fullest!
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